Speaking for the first time since Houston’s death a month ago, Bobbi Kristina told Oprah Winfrey she feels her mother’s presence all the time.
In an extraordinary interview, the 19-year-old said: “Throughout the house, lights turn on and off, and I’m like, ‘mum, what are you doing?’ I can still laugh with her and still talk to her. I can hear her voice telling me to ‘keep moving, baby, I’ve got you’. I can always feel her with me.”
Bobbi Kristina was taken to hospital twice when she broke down after her mother’s death at the age of 48 in her hotel bathroom. She says the grief now comes over her in waves, but she’s bolstered by her mother’s spirit.
“I feel her passing through me all the time,” she said. “I wake up at night. She would say at 5am the saints start praying. Every night I wake up and look at the clock and it’s 5am. I start praying.
“No one knows what an amazing spirit she was. She wasn’t only a mother, she was a best friend,” said Bobbi Kristina, who told Oprah she was doing “as good as I possibly can”.
She added: “I can sing her music but to hear it right now— I can’t. I can hear her voice in spirit.”
The teenager said she and her mother helped each other through hard times. “I saw her hurt and I saw her cry and we held each other through that. We had our arguments, but at the end of the day that was my mother, my confidant and my everything.”
Bobbi Kristina told how they spent precious hours together before her mother died. “The very last day, it was so early in the morning I went to go and get her I was like ‘Will you come and lay down with me.’ She was rubbing my head and I slept in her arms all day and all night long.”
Bobbi Kristina said she wants to follow her mother into show business and “carry on the legacy”.
“We’re going to do the singing thing. Some acting, some dancing,” she said, adding that her mother had trained her to handle the pitfalls of fame.
“It’s a lot of pressure, but she prepared me for it”.
She said the scale of her mother’s fame only hit her at her funeral in February. “She made an impact not only on a few people. She made an impact on the world.”
Bobbi Kristina said her mother was “an angel” and she dismissed negative stories about her as “garbage”.
“That’s not my mother,” she said of the superstar who would come home after a performance and ask her daughter if she looked okay. “I’d say, ‘You’re beautiful. You’re fine. You’re perfect.”
The teenager didn’t mention her father, singer Bobby Brown, with whom she has had a troubled relationship but friends say she will drop his name and be known as “Kristina Houston”.
Her parents’ marriage was marred by drug abuse and domestic violence and the last straw for the teenager was said to have been when Brown left Houston’s funeral after a row over seating.
Although Bobbi Kristina has allegedly struggled with substance abuse, she will receive all her mother’s estate, with the first instalment on her 21st birthday.
The cause of Houston’s death has still not been established. But her sister-in-law, Patricia Houston, who managed her for 20 years, told Oprah she had feared for some time that drugs could kill her.
“The handwriting was kind of on the wall,” she said. “I would be kidding myself to say otherwise.”
via www.thisislondon.co.uk
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