She has now told how it gave her the will to live despite the agony of chronic poisoning.
The librarian was struck down by E.coli food poisoning suspected of being from a vegetarian burger at a takeaway bar at the end of July when little Ollie was just ten weeks old.
Doctors decided to induce her into a coma for her own health in the hope that her body and medication would help battle the infection.
She spent five weeks in a coma and on a dialysis machine before coming around at Wrexham Maelor Hospital.
Mrs Morrisroe-Clutton, of Wrexham, North Wales, admitted that at the worst point she "wanted to die" because of the agony of the poison running through body, suffering seizures and kidney failure.
But her husband Paul, 33, played a video recording of Ollie's first weeks next to her bedside - and she remembers hearing his voice despite being in the coma.
"I confess that at one stage I just gave up. Frankly I wanted to die," she said.
"But then I heard Ollie and I thought 'I want to live'.
"I heard his voice because my husband Paul was playing the tapes and I turned around and said to myself: 'I can't do this. I need to live."
She added: "I heard him and thankfully I pulled through."
She wasn't able to see her son for eight weeks because it was deemed to dangerous to take him into hospital to visit his mum in intensive care.
But her husband, a business advisor, took pictures and video of their son.
He also sat at her bedside giving her regular updates on his progress.
She believes that her mother's natural love for her son was crucial in her winning her fight for life.
"It is the most natural thing in the world for a mother to feel those pangs of love when you hear your child," she said.
"I just remember lying there and thinking that I wanted to hold him, to see his face and to stroke his little hands.
"I knew that I had to live and that he needed his mother. I just wanted to see him."
She added: "I did know that I was dying at one point. In fact because I was having all this treatment, I knew it wasn't working.
"But when Paul played the tapes it changed and I started to fight back."
She was away from her son for eight weeks - and could only see him when she was well enough to be moved out of intensive care and onto a general ward.
She admitted she worried whether her son would remember his mum after being parted for so much of his young life.
But she was delighted when he returned her love with a glowing smile.
She said: "He did remember me. He sort of gave me a look and then this massive smile came. It was just wonderful."
She is now back at home after 67 days in hospital.
Her consultant Stuart Robertson had been "desperate" to get her back with her baby to speed up her recovery.
She is now "almost" back to normal apart from some slight liver damage which will eventually repair itself. She is also suffering from muscle weakness after being so long in a hospital bed.
The takeaway, criticised for poor hygiene 12 months ago with zero stars out of five, was shut down by environmental health officers to allow an investigation to take place.
An investigation is ongoing into the source of the E.coli outbreak.
Toni Slater, of the council's public protection department, said: "The Llay Fish Bar has been inspected on numerous occasions.
"The council is still satisfied the fish bar is still complying with the legal standard."
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